We went out to Japanese and had a yummy dinner and three 300ml servings of sake.
I was feeling quite relaxed from the sake by this stage. We went home and I had obviously passed that point where I want to drink more and get wasted.
So I suggested we go to a club where bf used to work, because I thought he might say yes. I kind of wish now that he had said no, because there were poker machines there.
He suggested we finish of the half joint he had left over from last night, so we did.
On the way from the car to the club I took a couple of valiums. Not that I needed them.
We only had a couple of drinks and stayed for around an hour because I didnt have much money with me and know I have no money on me. My savings are in an account that I threw the attached card to it away, so on nights like this I dont touch it.
When we got home we had a couple of vodkas and cranberry and I took a sleeping pill. Not that I would have needed it.
I have never done this kind of thing before. Mixing alcohol, weed and prescription drugs, just because I want to get wasted.
Not a good sign.
I dont know where the need to get drunk/wasted came from, seeing I was always the one that everyone used to say never got drunk. And I didnt.
It has only started in the last 2 – 4 years.
I used to always save my valium, so when I really needed it, I had some.
My regular GP, who I have been seeing for about 10 years give me valium, but I only usually get maybe two prescriptions a year these days. The GP at the medical centre wont give me Valium. From what I can gather it is not a drug given out easily here, so I dont want to lose the privilege of being able to get it from my GP.
I have been given a Health Care Pack (I think that is what it is called) that gives me 10 cheaper ($120) sessions with a therapist.
Maybe it is time to make that appointment.