I know this year is going to start out rough.
Going back to work next week is going to be extremely difficult, knowing my boss just loves to pick at me.
Trying to find another job when Im not feeling confident at all about myself, will make interviews hard to endure.
Interviews make me nervous anyway, but not being in the right frame of mind will make them even more nerve racking.
Last night I went out and gambled and now my bf is not talking to me and I will probably get the silent treatment for a while.
Silent treatment is hard to endure. I know it’s my own fault, but when I am pissed off with my bf, I get over it very quickly.
Im half expecting the “splitting up” talk from bf, as it is what he usually does when he gets like this. I dont blame him for wanting to leave, but threatening it whenever things arent rosy, I dont think is fair.
Home life being not so great and work life also being the way it is, is bringing back the feeling I know oh so well.
I dont know where I am going to find the strength.
Im only still here because of my furry kids. I only have one left and the thought of leaving him without his Mum makes me sad. He wouldnt understand where I had gone.
I love him so dearly.
I am feeling pretty low right now.