Hello lovely fellow blogees
I have been terribly neglectful of late. I dont have any really great excuses.
Ive been very unmotivated to anything, but work, sleep, watching TV on my laptop and hanging with my kitties. Oh and dragging myself to fencing once a week. I couldnt even do that on Saturday, I spent most of the day in bed.
I have even been very slack at reading your blogs.
Im soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo unmotivated to anything.
Other than than Im feeling OK. The depression has been minding its own business and leaving me alone most of the time. bf on the other hand has been a grumpy ass!
He found a packet of cigarettes on the window sill and they were a brand I dont smoke normally. When I get a bit merry, I sometimes smoke and probably bought them at a pub. I dont even remember when they are from. It must have been ages ago!
Because of this he is suspicious that I am cheating. I mean really! I can barely get myself out of bed, let alone find another man to cheat with. I’d rather lick the back stairs. It would require a lot less energy and Im a bit of a germaphobe, so that is saying something.
He also cracked the poos because I wanted him to try and change a doctors appointment by just ringing up and asking, so I wouldnt have to have a day off. He said it made him feel like I thought he was worthless and not having a day off was more important. Not what I meant at all.
I kinda hurts that he would think I think that low of him and that I would cheat on him.
I told him that there are times he goes to product launches and goes out with the boys that I could think that, but I take his word for it that he wont cheat. That’s all I have, is his word and I trust him on that.
So I hope you’re all well, I know some of you wont be. Hugs to everyone that wants or needs one.
I will try to motivate myself and keep you up to date and read what’s going on in your life.