I had a flex day off. Slept in til about 11:3oam.
Got up and had a yoghurt and watched stuff I had recoreded.
Had a couple of teas.
Went out to dinner at Tomodachi, picked up a few things at the supermarket.
We had a really good conversaton about fencing at dinner, which we are both enjoying.
At the supermarket he was telling me about something at work and I made the joke, “Has anyone told you, you talk to much” ha ha
He cracked the shit and didnt talk for the rest of shopping and still now at home 3 hours later.
I wasnt serious. Im rarely saracastic ever seriously.
He hasnt talked to me hardly since and says hes fine. Yeah right.
When I got home I had a beer and then a small joint. I seem to do this when he gets shitty. I feel like gettting wasted on recently weed and drink to I guess forget.
He is still not speaking to me. I didnt mean it.
But still he is grumpy at me.
A couple more glasses of red wine and cigarettes. I only smoke when I drink and guess when I get evenly remotely stoned.
Im feeeling horny but he is cranky so will keep it to myself.
I felt like getting smashed, getting stoned and taking all my Valium.
BUT I dont have enough to OD.
So more cigarettes and wine.
I wish he could relax when I told him I was only joking. And I never say mean things seriously, only joking ever. BUT he is still shittty.