I also feel If I did die, it would take family and friends a long time to even notice I was gone.

The Depressed Moose

Lately on Facebook I have started to feel like I am invisible to all but a select few people. I guess it comes from no longer playing mafia wars and therefor not having anything in common with most of the people who are still on my friends list (130 people).

One thing I have noticed about myself, especially on the days when I feel most depressed is how needy I am.  I like to feel like people are interested in me as a person and crave attention and affection. Let me give you an example of this, I posted the following as a status update on Facebook yesterday

“How would you know how I am, you never ask!”

This was posted over 24 hours ago and ONE person responded to it! one out of  130 “friends”!

I am the sort of person who doesn’t like always having to make the…

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  1. As someone who had a best friend who attempted suicide.. yes, people would notice very quickly, and your death would have a drastic effect on a lot of people. Now, you may not be talking about suicide here, but even if you’re not, your death would still effect a LOT of people. My friend was overwhelmed by all the people who were upset by her suicide attempt. She thought there would be no one upset when she was gone, and was blown away by how many people she had hurt and confused by the attempt.

    So, yes, people would notice and they would probably notice fairly quickly. And once they did notice it would be a horrible, emotional time for those people. Death is not a pleasant thing, no matter who it happens to 😦

    • It would definitely be noticed, and more. River, your reply touched me and I wanted to just add to it. As someone who in April attempted suicide, I totally agree with what you say about your friend and the people around her – I was completely astonished and blown away by how many people were effected by my attempt. It still takes my breath away when I think of the love I received and the amount of friends and folk I had not even spoken to in ages, who were in touch and bombarding love, anger and confusion my way. This is not the way to prove to yourself you are loved – call out before you get to this point. What came with this love was complete turmoil, trauma and physical insanity so below this love was horror too, so please do not do it. I wrote a little post about this if you want to take a read: http://sunshineandpeaches.wordpress.com/2012/07/25/please-dont-do-it-2/

      Ask for help and share this with those around you. As someone once said to me, ‘it is much better that your friends might occasionally get a bit annoyed sometimes with you talking to them or asking for advice or phoning them when you’re struggling, than for them to be grieving your loss.’ No words can describe what I saw it do to my friends, but I hope that you can hear this and know that you are loved and noticed all the time, even if you don’t feel like it.
      We online folk are here for you too.


      • Thank you to both of you for your words. I read your blog. It does sadden me thinking of how my poor kitties and bf would feel if I was gone. Thanks again. Kat xxx

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