Trying to write a book

on my battle with depression, anxiety and panic attacks.
I have such a fragmented memory of my life.

My memory is full of holes.

I dont know if it is due to the stress my poor brain has endured over the many years or if its due to the medications or the spate of seizures I had in my late teens and early twenties.

It makes it hard to write a book.  I guess if I sit down and try to think of my earliest memory, which will have to be from my mid teens, because I dont have any memory of my childhood.  Maybe I will be surprised at what I can remember.  I have read of people who sat down and one memory triggered another.

I dont know if I have blocked it all out.  Maybe it is a good thing.  Im not brave enough to delve into that part of my mind, just in case Im better off not knowing.

I want to write a biography, so other people can hopefully find comfort knowing they are not the only one.  I get a little comfort from reading other peoples blogs and know I am not the only one.  I also wish those people werent suffering.  It just shouldnt be so.

Im not sure it will have a happy ending yet.  Never can tell from one day to the next.  I doubt it though.





One thought on “Trying to write a book

  1. It isn’t easy. I am dealing with similar things with my husband. This is what I always tell him, I hope you find something in this phrase that helps you: “One day at a time, one moment at a time and one step at a time.” I post a lot of pics out there to try to help all of us either feel better, calmer, happier or even a little second of being somewhere else. We all have our own illnesses to handle but hopefully we can all help each other make it a little easier. Feel free to reblog any of my pics etc that you like or would like to share…i would be honored to share them. Blessings be with you and white light as protection to bring you out of the darkness…amen….so mote it be.

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