Since my work merged with other deparments (one of them being a ver toxic department), work is no longer a nice place to be.
Not many of my colleagues ended up with a job and there are only maybe a dozen of us left.
At least once a fortnight I hear something negative about me from someone. Generally about a conversation I have had and what I have said has been completely innocent, has been twisted into something negative and told to other staff and management.
My name is now mud.
I am very careful of what I say and try to keep it work related and still this happens.
Ive been with my department for nearly 13 years and have liked working there, but now it looks like I will have to find another job and quickly, as I cant use current management as referees. I can only use my previous management for references, as they have a good opinion of me.
We had a new Director start just before Christmas and he has already been told I dont want to work on other departments work. We do not have enough staff to generally transfer knowledge to one another and noone has offered to teach me.
Just last week, as I wasnt very busy I offered my help to a staff member who was before from one of the other departments and said I can help with any of his work regardless of which departments systems it was for. But noone hears about that and when someone relayed my conversation to someone in my team, the words where twisted somehow and that person gave me the cold shoulder the next day.
It is really getting me down and just wish I didnt have to deal with humans anymore, as so many of them dont care about anyone but themselves.
I feel so helpless and defeated. I just cant do anything right in their eyes. I dont know who it is that is twisting my words and spreading negative things about me and my work.
I used to be the “go to” person to get things done and have always offered help.
And now I am noone and the new management think I am incapable.
I wish I didnt have to live this life anymore.
but I must look after kitty